And As Such, I'm Happy (Part 2)

I'll tell you what i did.

I woke up Monday morning in an absolutely rancid mood. Everything just seemed off. I had taken Five Test the previous week and completely bombed two of them. I was worried about school. I woke up later than usual and was late for my physics class (one of the tests that schooled me). I was feeling anxious about multiple things.

But, despite how I felt, I wanted to be happy.

I knew it was hard, so I forwent the things I was used to and did the things I wanted to. Instead of getting ready at the late hour, I knelt by my bed and said an extra long prayer. I thanked my Heavenly Father for all the wonderful things he had blessed me with. I spent a long time asking for special blessing for those of whom I care dearly about. When all was said and done I only asked one thing for myself; "Father, bless me that I may do what I want today."

With that I proceeded with my daily routine. I parked my car and realized at my current rate I had missed half of class. So instead of walking to class I sat at a bench and did some scripture study. It made me miss the rest of my class.

And I was happy. I was doing what I wanted. I realized that missing one day of class wasn't going to hurt me in the long run. I just wanted to feel close to my Heavenly Father, so I didn't do what I was used to, I did what I wanted.

These first two things did lighten my mood, but I still didn't feel 100%. I was determined to be happy. I didn't care what my body was telling me. I didn't care about physiological signals in brain relaying seratonin and such. I didn't care about the overcast, make-you-wanna-cry sky. I wasn't going to allow any of these things to tell me what to do. I was going to do what I wanted.

So I ended up listening to songs from Seminary Soundtracks all morning long. When ever I stressed or just felt genuinely sad, I did some deep breathing, closed my eyes, and focused on the song. It worked wonders. By two oclock I was feeling amazing and happy and thankful and joyful. I loved it!

I went to bed early. Despite what my mind and body told me. Why? Because I wanted to. I woke up at five the next morning (hence going to sleep early) to attend the temple with my single's branch where we did baptisms for the dead.

I gained a new appreciation for the priesthood and the ordinances we go through while in the temple. I made some new friends. And while i may not have met the girl i will marry (after all the ranting, how ironic if I marry someone from Springville), I met the type of wonderful young woman that I WANT to marry.

It was beautiful. And I'm twitterpated. I feel as a hopeless romantic. Here's some pictures that reflect to some degree how I feel.

I wish Powerline were real. I'd use one of his songs for my wedding song. Definitely.

One of my secret wishes is to meet a girl with whom I can sing "A Whole New World" with. Stupid, I know. but I love that song, and for some reason Jeremiah and Courtney remind me of Aladdin and Jasemin. And I'm definitely using their marriage as a template for my own. I think they are the cutest couple and feel that I won't be in bad company if I follow in their footsteps.

I have this picture on my ipod. It's the background for the song "Next to You" by Michelle Branch. It's the sweetest song and this picture goes perfectly with it.

This is just cool. If you can't read it, Beast is saying "Belle... it's me!" and Belle's reply is, "CHANGE BACK."
Totally agree with the sentiment. Beast looked like a total idiot as a human. Plus Belle is my favorite Disney princess (actually she's tied with Megara).